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Leo Migdal

-Nov 18, 2025, 10:25 PM

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The SPAZ Movement and Team has been created to stop the stigma of suicide and to get others talking about prevention! SPAZ = Suicide Prevention and Awareness Zone I (and my Co-Founder Valerie) have a huge passion for spreading the awareness and prevention of suicide as we have been touched and rocked in many ways by it emotional grasp. The SPAZ Movement is a team we have created to use our physical activity and events to raise awareness for suicide prevention and awareness. We will not sweep this dirty word under the rug any longer. There are 5 things we can do every day to help prevent suicide...

As my life takes a complete turn, I have more time to focus on my quest to help break the stigma of mental health, help to prevent suicide, and to be a mama that... SPAZ (Suicide Prevention and Awareness Zone) was created to help bring to light mental health through exercise and "moving to live". SPAZ now has two different sides, the exercise side where we will continue to make sure mental health and suicide is proudly brought to light in all communities, but also through blogging, volunteering, and... There is hope! This is a part of my life I thought I would NEVER see, and now I get to live my dream of spreading hope and awareness around mental health and suicide. Share your thoughts, feelings, support, right here with the SPAZ Family!

Share your training stories, adventures, race pics, thoughts, and traing woes with us! As my life takes a complete turn, I have more time to focus on my quest to help break the stigma of mental health, help to prevent suicide, and to be a mama that... SPAZ (Suicide Prevention and Awareness Zone) was created to help bring to light mental health through exercise and "moving to live". SPAZ now has two different sides, the exercise side where we will continue to make sure mental health and suicide is proudly brought to light in all communities, but also through blogging, volunteering, and... There is hope! This is a part of my life I thought I would NEVER see, and now I get to live my dream of spreading hope and awareness around mental health and suicide.

Today the topic is love; love lost, unconditional love, and finding/creating a love you always wanted. I have experienced so many different varieties of love in the past year, and in my reflection, I have learned so much about love. Today, I want to share some feelings that I have about love and some feelings I don’t know if they're normal or if they are my disease that makes my brain a little different,... As of January 27, 2020, I will be filing for divorce. I have been separated from my estranged husband for 11 months and the hardest and best thing I have ever done in my life was leave. I haven’t talked about this a lot, just kind of hitting it here and there but I am ready now to wipe the slate clean and start my best life so it is time.

I’m not one to say many good things about myself but one I will say is that I am extremely loyal. If I make you a promise I am going to keep it, if it almost kills me, and literally this one almost did. I will not pass on the blame to anyone but myself and will take full responsibility for ending my marriage to save myself. It was selfish and completely contradictory of what I believe in, but it was the only thing that was going to keep me on this earth for any amount of time. I spent three years of my life telling myself to be patient, that things would go back to normal and things would change, I was married, I couldn’t leave what I promised to stay... There comes a time when you just have to do what is best for you.

I don’t think I ever envisioned myself in a situation where everyday when I went home I would have to distract myself so I wouldn’t think about ending my life. Never would I have thought that I would have to beg for attention to feel wanted or needed so my cries for attention became angry lashes of hurt. I became bitter at the world. All I have ever wanted was to be a wife and a mom, and I felt like life stole it from me because my current situation was making me die a painful death instead... The night I decided I was going to leave, I was laying in bed and for the first time in months, I was not alone. We argued over the way I phrased a sentence and at that point I said to myself, this is exactly what I do not want my life to look like, this is enough, I’m...

When I left I did not know where the separation would lead. I didn’t know if it would be a wake up call for me, him, or both, and in what direction that call would lead. I quickly went downhill. I didn’t know how much life a support-less marriage had sucked out of me. I didn’t understand how much grief, anger, resentment, sadness that I had manifested dealing with life alone for 5+ years and playing the façade of a happy family. I did not know how much time I had stopped investing in me and how much energy trying to just make it one more day was taking out of me, when I left, I...

I hit my breaking point and it had nothing to do with my divorce and separation, and everything to do with the love and respect I had lost for myself. I spent so much time loving others and helping others despite what that did to me mentally and emotionally for so long I lost my own sense of self. The only thing I did for myself was workout and it caused issues and sources of contention because when trying to run away from life, I fell into it more and more, spending hours... When I couldn’t stand it one more day, I’d sign up for another race, plan another trip away, or go home to exercise with my mom because running away from my problems was the... I felt stuck and hopeless and it was all because I forgot what I deserved. I forgot that love should never bring you down, it should only raise you up.

I forgot that love is a partnership of trust between two people to help and respect each other and their needs and dreams. I forgot that if there was true love, there would be companionship, sacrifice, and support. In losing what I valued as love, I let myself get used and broken to the point that forgiveness and rebuilding was not an option for me. Share your training stories, adventures, race pics, thoughts, and traing woes with us! 2019…. It is here.

What does that mean differently for me? What am I going to do differently so that the crap shoot 2018 gave me, doesn’t rear it’s head again? I think one of the things that are hard about life are all the uncertainties. You live your everyday life trying to make the best decisions for you and your family, but sometimes even the best choices backwash shit water into your life. 2018 was a rough year, after 2017 I thought for sure 2018 had to be better….pfft… but what does complaining about a crappy two years get me? Nothing.

By saying I had two crappy years, I skip over all the good stuff, all the fun stuff, and all the things that brought me so much joy when I am in a bad... Here is my 2018 sum up of HAPPY things that I hope to recreate in 2019: -Being a part of Team Rev 3 - they saved my life this year. Literally. -Care taking for my beautiful Grandfather when he needed me

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